I feel a bit uneasy. A lot of people told me that i’m impetuous. Well, don’t expect them to use the exact word but still, its like what they all say to me. That i’m rash, impulsive, hasty, hotheaded, reckless and all its synonyms alike. The only positive meaning of impetuous that i’ve looked up on is spontaneous. yeah, positive enough for me. isn't it that being impetuous would mean that you make rash decisions which would lead to being selfish and then all you care about in the world is yourself? then that would mean, my recklessness would lead me to being egocentric. i do things my way and make it end the way i like and just continue on doing it without even realizing that through that straight path that i've been trying to make, i get so oblivious to the fact that people are getting hurt and hating me for being such an arrogant, self-centered, egotistical stuck-up. am i really that negative? could be. i may be a bit insensitive but i AM trying to change. maybe being haughty is just an effect of how i grew up. yeah, maybe. so you guys..i am truly sorry for hurting you in any way. i know sorry is not enough, but i hope it would help compensate even for just a bit the things i've done and said. Ü
i am trying to shut my trap you know. maybe my semi-broken jaw would help me do it.