bLu 21. Legal. St. Paul College of Pasig. University of Sto. Tomass. BS-Biology. Biology Dance Squad. Hyperluu. Schizoid. Rational. hopeless romantic. diabetically sweet. nature lover. music freak. dance-aholic. bgirl?. alcohol. FOOD. iced tea. lemon chicken. yang-chao fried rice. pc. highlighter. books. movies. guns. chucks. cars. sports. extrovert. angst level=99%. jokes. humor. laughter. BEACH. illusion. a little bit of everything unconventional. RANDOM. i love my family. i love my friends.
live. laugh. love. learn. EAT.


You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Coldplay - Lost


layout: lyricaltragedy
inspiration: outgone

your exits
9:14 PM | Monday, July 12, 2004
somebody stop me. i'm turning into mush. uber gooey. mop me up or something.
its been 10 days since my last post and i dont know why. i found my Starbucks planner again and, well, i can plan--again. (hwaaat?!) guess what, i found ch0nki. the loner is back and well, still a loner. malamang di na kme mshado mgksama nyn. di ko na sha classmate eh. :'( nyah.we're gonna watch mean girls on saturday. movie buddies again. we're oh so complete again. again, and again.

being a senior is fairly good. not really a hw pile up year. the only work stressing me up is the songfest. honestly, i might not graduate coz of that friggin fest. whatever. the lazy fairy is too lazy to visit me again. bummer. i'm becoming a workaholic again. (?!) i'm reading another book. Boy Meets Girl by Meg Cabot. tenchu crespo.

i'm listening to sappy love songs right now. eew. and the song of the minute iiiiisss..... "Now and Forever" by Richard Marx. Tripping ng Y! Beta

A big part of me is lost. super lost. i dont know where it has gone to and i dont even know what it is. i used to be super happy. i dont know what happened. sabi ni Maan knina nung tinulak ko si kwinih at lumipad sha, "Maharot ka pala, hindi halata. promise." w0w. in state of shock ako after nun pr0mise. bleargh. i want to go and party out again. go to gigs and concerts and drink and be the someone i used to be. seems like i left everything behind. i wanna have fun again. You can't have fun if you get embarrassed. right?right?
pero next time na partying, aral muna. need to find and hopefully pass a good school.

my neighbor's Dad committed suicide yesterday morning. i won't tell how. just bits of why. Well, he was depressed. Didn't have a clue on how he's going to support his family. So he thought of ending his life. Imagine waking up, happy because it's your dad's birthday and you feel happy because you're going to spend his day with your family. Then, after a few minutes of happiness, reality decides to barge in, your body goes numb, your whole world crumbles as you see your family crying over your dad's body... I don't know what I'd do.

Luv yah Daddy-0! .mashy.

*eeew a green bug dived into my coffee. now i can't drink it. sayang. ok lng. mauubos narin eh. i love coffee.

I'm loving dramatics and Ms. Crisel Consunji.
SAM (Samahang Ayaw Manahimik) di uso katahimikan.
The Modernist Temperament.