21. Legal. St. Paul College of Pasig. University of Sto. Tomass. BS-Biology. Biology Dance Squad. Hyperluu. Schizoid. Rational. hopeless romantic. diabetically sweet. nature lover. music freak. dance-aholic. bgirl?. alcohol. FOOD. iced tea. lemon chicken. yang-chao fried rice. pc. highlighter. books. movies. guns. chucks. cars. sports. extrovert. angst level=99%. jokes. humor. laughter. BEACH. illusion. a little bit of everything unconventional. RANDOM. i love my family. i love my friends.
live. laugh. love. learn. EAT.
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Coldplay - Lost
1:43 PM | Sunday, January 30, 2005
love is in the air!
and i can barely breath. february is coing too soon and my mom is getting excited with her birthday/reunion bash. anyhoo. back to the topic of love and valentines day..
i'm not saying this because i'm bitter of not having someone to fully share the day with. i'm merely releasing my thoughts. sure, i don't have anyone to call as my 'significant other' with all the mutual understandings and shit. it's just funny how couples tend to celebrate this day with ground breaking flies in their wallets and butterflies coming out of their pockets. but, what is love now? It doesn’t exist. It’s all hormones, confusion, your sanity is hanging on the edge. but as they all say, brilliance is edged with insanity. you may not need a point or a reason to love but sometimes reality just has to bite back and make you realize that a load of crap has been happening. you feel the love, infatuation or the raging hormones and feel a jolt of electricity within you as you fight the urge to stop and consider the truth that has been happening. your mind tells you that love exists in this situation. but these feelings are going to be temporary. eventually everything will crunch up to the beginning and return to one's first and only "love". the feeling becomes enclosed in a box of memories. together with the bitter truth of the past. (my mind is drifting away from my point) anyway, i remember myself saying, "I don't believe in love." in front of 45 people just to support my answer after being asked if 'i was willing to change everything in my life for love'. what a load of crap. i wouldn't risk anything just for the sake of love. gawd. that line is so cliched. but what if wasn't love, what could it possibly have been? i might be eating my words when the time comes. but until then, i'm sure i won't get caught up in the nasty web of 'love', what with all its mushy, cliched eewness.
i got this from a book. and i almost share he same sentiments as the writer. except for the 'envy' part. i'm merely interested in people who are like that.
"It is never easy to lay open the door to your heart, because love and rejection get in the same way. Love is not for the faint hearted. I envy the the people who can plunge headlong into relationships after but just some tentative attempts at getting to know another person. I envy people who can meet strangers and shortly afterward declare that they were meant for each other. I envy those who are not afraid to go after their consequences and damn the consequences. i envy eople who can go from conquest to conquest without feeling diminished by it."
I can never be like them. i don't think like them. Once you've tasted manna from heaven, why bother with bread from the baker? Nothing compares with it.
"One love, one lifetime." Not one conquest after another. As Sting sings, that's not the shape of my heart.