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You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Coldplay - Lost


layout: lyricaltragedy
inspiration: outgone

your exits
11:58 AM | Saturday, April 09, 2005
in less than a month, i've made a complete fool of myself and in the end, some people ended up getting hurt.

i really don't understand why my realistic side always overpowers my mushed up side. i always end up thinking of what will and might happen in reality instead of thinking about the spontaneity of what might happen if for once i stop thinking. just for once. (and right now i can't even think straight.) The person i loved, (yes, love is such a strong word for me to say, hell, right now, i don't even care) yeah well, i met him again. we got together. and blah blah. talked about what happened and my past stupidity. last night we had a talk and well, i thought it went good, but now, he texted me and said something about him doing his part and me, well being stupid. he said, the problem with me is, i keep on saying that 'it's okay' when in truth, i'm not even sure. then after the okay part, i take it back stupidly. i really am having trouble keeping my grounds. it's as if when i'm with him, i have no care in the world and i just keep on saying 'okay'. then when i'm left alone, i start thinking. reality starts to kick in. i take back what i said and what i've done back then. yes, we've done some stupid things. i admit that. anyway, right now, i'm getting confused. i don't know what to tell him. i have absolutely no clue on what to do. should i just be my stupid friggin self or just let it pass and wait up until we meet again?

where is starfish when i need her.. oh right, in davao. bring me some food will ya? and we need to talk about my stupid problem and my stupid self.

------slightly tanned, a bit dark--b0ra. illusion. cocomangas.