12:59 AM | Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i thought i can let a day pass by without.... but no. but i'll try to do it again. tomorrow, maybe. we'll see. a test for myself again. it's only a single day. i can do this. right. fine..
now i can't sleep. me and my friends had a little reunion. just the four of us now. we all had a good 'talk' and everyone was given the chance to tell their story. of course i've had my share of the time. so after everything, i've finally come up with a good entry. from a single line in Smallville and from the stories of my friends. thanks guys."..there's nothing worse than a missed oppurtunity."
true. i've experienced it. a lot have experienced it. and regret missing that moment afterwards. you'd start thinking how stupid you were for letting go of that moment and now, all you could think of is one word. "sayang". that moment could change your life forever. either good or bad. either way, it still happened. as cliched as it may sound, 'destiny allowed it to happen'. then again, your stupidity got hold of you at that exact moment when the fates were on your side and lady luck was just throwing rocks at you. i had this moment. i didnt know. this has now become the only thing i regretted in my whole life. but hey, maybe it was meant to happen that way. or maybe that exact moment, was the time i decided to give up.. i guess God doesn't want me to stop. but still, karma was on my side and i deserved what i got in the end.
so when you have a feeling. even a simple feeling. don't let go of it. it may change you or even drive you crazy but once 'the moment' comes, never ever let go of it. but if you ever do, don't stop there and just leave it at a stagnant state. continue holding on to that feeling. there may be nothing left you can give but it's the thought of having the effort of not letting go that counts. you held on. even for a while.
never hold back. it's there in front of you. even if there's no hope left in you, you could at least try.
after everything, never make the same mistake again.