bLu 21. Legal. St. Paul College of Pasig. University of Sto. Tomass. BS-Biology. Biology Dance Squad. Hyperluu. Schizoid. Rational. hopeless romantic. diabetically sweet. nature lover. music freak. dance-aholic. bgirl?. alcohol. FOOD. iced tea. lemon chicken. yang-chao fried rice. pc. highlighter. books. movies. guns. chucks. cars. sports. extrovert. angst level=99%. jokes. humor. laughter. BEACH. illusion. a little bit of everything unconventional. RANDOM. i love my family. i love my friends.
live. laugh. love. learn. EAT.


You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Coldplay - Lost


layout: lyricaltragedy
inspiration: outgone

your exits
6:15 PM | Thursday, November 23, 2006
what to do... i need...something. hmm...

anyhoot, chemlec and microbio quiz tom. il be studying after dinner. hopefully i wont fall asleep. someone wake me up please.


i don't want to sleep. bad dreams. nightmares. i had one last night about me...and my friend.
it started with me, having a death toll--i was going to die in less than a week. within that week i got to talk to everyone. said my goodbyes. clear everything. made amends. i was supposed to look on the brightside of being able to get in touch with everyone i know, but there was something nagging me while i was saying goodbye. i wasn't able to talk to a dear friend coz we had a misunderstanding and i haven't told that person yet that i'll die in a few days. until it came to the day before the dreaded one, i approached the person and said sorry...only to be brushed off. i was left alone... then a change of scene. it was the day. i didn't want to die sad, but i was crying the whole time til my last breath. (cliched words..i know.) having not to talk to that person hurts more than dying..
when i woke up, i was crying too. and by the looks of my pillow, on how wet it was, i was crying the whole time too. i desperately needed a hug after that..

i had a bad morning coz i woke up at around 3.30 am. i couldn't sleep after that. i didn't want to. coz the dream might continue (which always happens to me) and i would end up getting sad again. i don't want that to happen...

hopefully no bad dreams tonight.

keep me safe.