deep breath....

woooozaaahhh.....

ok im fine again.

just needed to let something out.. writing really works for me. when i remember things; sometimes happy, most of the time sad.. i turn to my stupid blog. or find a friend and let it out on him/her. but blogging works just fine. after remembering something (subconsciously!), i write it down or say something vague about it here, then i'll forget it--even for just a few days or worse, hours. everything just takes time. right now im in a lot of pain. physically and emotionally. but lulu is strong. lulu can handle this. (self-assurance!) just like what my friend said, "lulu, maraming nagmamahal sa'yo, di mo lang alam." well these people make me strong. they help me believe in myself. kaya ko toh! (linya ni starfish un. hehe. hiniram ko muna.) kinakaya naman e. maraming tumutulong. that's when i believed what my friend told me. in my sad moment, a lot texted and asked how i was and said they missed me. seriously. wow. and they just happen to remember me at that exact time. seriously. and some of them i haven't seen for months! un ang kaibigan! lakas ng pakiramdam. haha. o ayan, nakalimutan ko nanaman ang sakit. parang galit sakin katawan ko. ouch. my heart hurts. literally. (wag muna figuratively. :p) masaya na nga ko sa oras na to eh. hayaan muna natin sa ganun. sabi ng puso ko, dahil umiinom ka ng kape ngayon, pasasakitin natin ang torso mo! aray. masakit nga. (naimagine ko pa c novs nagsabi nun. shet.)

RANDOM. seriously.

wana go back to shang. wana watch a movie. wana eat some pizza & pasta. cheese! nd just be happy..

wait kakanta ko ng one-liner LSS :

I just wanted to hold you in my arms

clap.clap. ehem. thanks to Muse for the 'line'.


----okay back to the book report