an LJ entry last Sept. 5, '05


though we normally find ways to give pleasure and happiness in ourselcves, there is still that fleeting moment that you would want to stop and give up looking. coz sometimes, our mood stays that way, and no other feeling can be felt but that instant remorse of backing down just when you needed uplifting the most. I have no idea what just happened but i'm feeling down, and i've given up looking for ways to amuse myself even just for a while. i'm not in the mood to do antyhing, even study, but here i am, posting another entry. feeling crappier by the minute. my friend said, i just need someone, or something.. but i just don't want it. in denial? maybe not. my mind is telling me to think straight, but my heart forces me to think otherwise. i guess it's a battle between 'em again. but my mind always wins. no, never the heart. it has never been the heart. we'll see when that happens. if that happens.
sometimes we wish we were small..
wish we were somewhere..
wish we had that someone..

but sometimes, we wish too much that we miss enjoying
who we are..
where we are..
and who we have..