21. Legal. St. Paul College of Pasig. University of Sto. Tomass. BS-Biology. Biology Dance Squad. Hyperluu. Schizoid. Rational. hopeless romantic. diabetically sweet. nature lover. music freak. dance-aholic. bgirl?. alcohol. FOOD. iced tea. lemon chicken. yang-chao fried rice. pc. highlighter. books. movies. guns. chucks. cars. sports. extrovert. angst level=99%. jokes. humor. laughter. BEACH. illusion. a little bit of everything unconventional. RANDOM. i love my family. i love my friends.
live. laugh. love. learn. EAT.
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Coldplay - Lost
11:40 AM | Sunday, February 18, 2007
my blog is back. i'm back.
i've put it on private mode for a couple of weeks just to let someone see something. i have no idea if it was read or not. but it was there. i really have no clue.
for the past few weeks, i was left out. maybe the mistake i did was making a shell too tough, that i didn't want anyone get too close. that i showed to much independence that they wouldn't have to care for me at all. so when i do get hurt, no one would care when all i wanted was a simple hug. others get it for free, even without experienceing pain. but i get to settle with nothing. now it adds to my problems and makes it hurt even more. but still i have to keep this to myself. i don't want to be selfish by telling someone all my problems and end up making them sad too. my friends already look happy so i'll just smile with them.
if i could sum up all the causes of hurt, pain and hatred in one word, it's just expectation.